i’m still searching for the “me”.. so, newer updates (if anyone is interested) will be at

http://xiner.wordpress.com/

=) i know im mahfan. and auntie. bt im nt sissy muahahahahahahas. =P

i know i havent found “me” and tts probably why i like all this changing around. i just cant settle for long. hai. change here change there, i need change, new stuffs.. even if it’s just sth tt is, essentially, unreal. tts who i am at this stage, at this point in time tts how i am now. =)

I have recently fallen in love with this..

* iGoogle (thanks to lin’s blog post) hehx.
decided to try it out aft i read lin’s blog and seriously, it’s pretty cool!!!!!! hahahahas. yes me lurves iGoogle

what i love about it the most? its customisation capabilities!! looky my search bars

and my fav gadgets (tools)?

- Quotes of the Day

- Puzzles and Riddles

- Google Reader

and of course, i can access my gmail instantly at just a click!

isn’t it just great???

and iGoogle is really organised. I get to add tabs of my interest like so:

and you can choose ur own theme!!!

PLUS! I get to add other stuff that i want on my main iGoogle page!!

and if the gadgets are not enough, i can create my own!!

isn’t iGoogle just amazingly cool ???

me lurves iGoogle

yup today’s the first day of chinese new year!!! yup. it’s the one festival i have the most deep love-hate relationship with. reason i love it: there’s a lot of food. and i mean, good food. reason why i hate it: there’s a lot of food. and i mean, good food. that equals fat. lol. for me lar! cos cny goodies are .. cny goodies! and i dont really eat tt much cookies/stuffs during d rest of the year. so it’s really like an eating spree. especially when i’m over at my 2nd paternal aunt’s place. my gdness. tt place is filled with good food!!!! hehx.

look at the spread!!!!!!!!!

*was jz talking to yvonne on msn. omg. i nvr knew tt they cared.. i feel guilty.. haiz. i feel so loved!!!!!!!!!!!* thanks girl.. *muahhs!!* no worries, im fine

yixin is tired. oh my. and theres nth much to update actually.. just a lot of random thoughts tt always follow a festive which requires celebration with my family maybe tomorrow *if i still rmb that is*

in any case, to everyone out there.. HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!!!

*for the new year, i wish that everyone is happy, healthy and will be able to achieve their goals and endeavours. i wish everyone health and happiness!!*

yes CNY is coming. it’s easy to know when..

1) you hear ppl saying : lets go chinatown and
2) you hear ppl saying: “harh?!?! go chinatown ar??!??! 人挤人挤死人！”
3) you start hearing ppl complain about the dust bunnies at home (as well as the junk!)

4) you see the pile of stuff outside salvation army piling up!
5) you hear your parents talking about going to the nursery – and you know that means more flowers in ur house!!!

a car full of orchids after dropping by the orchid nursery!!!!

and before you know it, ur hse becomes a forest (which is wat my hse is becoming):

6) you start feeling hungry and immediately grab for the containers filled with kueh bangkit and peanut / almond cookies

yummy kueh bangkit!! *slurps*

yummy!!!!! *droools*

*note: if the above is not available, you reach for the love letters. no, it has nth environmentally unfriendly about it*

7) you start seeing piles of mandarin oranges in ur hse:
yes. literally piles of oranges.

you start to see TV programs talking about the horoscopes for the new year:

“Your Horoscope
RABBIT
Daily Chinese: February 05, 2008

The Chinese New Year starting the 7th is likely to be a less fortunate year than the past one. Try finishing as many critical projects at work as you can before then. You might want to accept any invitations to socialize, which will make for an enjoyable time. You may want to attend a cultural event.”

9) you hear ppl talking about “eh! CNY eve! 通宵 ar!!” and you immediately know that they’re talking about mahjong:

(and want to join in too!!!)

10) the prices at every single store shoots up. haiz.

yes. CNY is an expensive festival. but even more so for the married!!! which probably is the exact reason why so many ppl prefer to spend even more money and go overseas for the lunar new year. wells. u noe, personal choice for me, i prefer spending my CNY eve at my aunt’s wasting the night away with mj after reunion dinner! since we have to 守夜 anyways.

hehx. and well, i really dont mind spending my time there cos all my paternal cousins are coooooool and funny LOL. and, its actually only the first night of CNY when we’re over at my maternal grandma’s for reunion dinner tt im hesitant abt. haiz. same fiasco all over again. man!

but its ok. i’ll show face to my grandma and go n put up with irritating aunts and cousins. for a while. its only cos of my grandma tt im gg. oh my stars. shes the last grandparent i have now n man am i gg to cherish her even tho sometimes she still says weird stuffs. i didnt have time to cherish my most beloved ah mah and maternal grandpa. nw i have to time to cherish her and i will

tomorrow’s CNY eve.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR FOLKS!!!!!

i’m not exactly moving, actually. just moving my everyday stuffs over to blogger at this address:

http://goofy-shtick.blogspot.com

if you see a picture of mahjong on the page, yes that is the correct page.

this blog, i probably will still keep. am thinking of changing the content to sth more .. focussed. so its nt gonna be everyday stuffs but rather, (probably) stuff tt im reading up on atm, maybe finance or education stuff like tt?  see u guys over at the other side then loooool. I love my tagboard i do.

lol. yes it’s our third bbq in 2mths! lol. tired day. haiz. pics of my cute cousin! (p.s. yixin is too tired. so its in thumbnail again. so sry….)

and stupid yixin just bit herself on the lip exactly the same spot as the previous time two days ago. n stupid yixin has forgotten to take her med. haiz. *isnt he cute????* 

i was happy. bt my IE hung. then i lost tt last post tt i didnt manage to publish before my IE hung. so nw im a little sad. cos i dont like re-typing stuffs. (yixin is having a minimal motor function day)

in any case, it was a happy day today! on the overall, that is. 

classes were fine……… i think. saw jenna and carmen! hahahas. tts so coincidental (*i suddenly realise that my bro’s gf/fiancé is in his room at this very point in time!*) hahas.

and while linlin, emms and me were waiting for shanyi n xueyi, guess what we were doing?? o-hello!!!!    dunno wad im talking about? this is it:

yes, do not doubt ur eyes. it is o-hello 

so, guess wad we are doing at the bench outside the toilet at blk3?????? yes. playing o-hello.

not fair! cos it was 2brains against 1! haiz. so it started out with this board: (im white, btw)

and lin is eating away my whites!!! haiz..

then it became this (at the very end):

a 37 – 27 victory to me! hahahahahahahahas. ok. im nuts.

and then, worse came …..

can u figure out what this is? no? let me give you a (very ugly) hint:

yes. tic tac toe. with reversi. oh my stars. lol. it was quite fun-ny lar. 

so anw, while we were at jp, i bought a new watch for 10bucks! so high hahahas cos the time n everything is in chinese. i.e. 子丑寅卯辰巳午未申…    (the reason i didnt type the last 3 is cos i dunno how to pronounce so i cant use hanyupinyin to type it out on the computer loool)

looky!!!!

ok, so cant really see lar. but the word on the inner rectangle is the 子丑寅卯 blahblah words.. and the pics on the outside rectangle is actually the chinese horoscope    from rat to pig!! hahahas. so cool right??!?!?!?!? 

and tts abt it for tdy’s post. cos yixin is tired. oh my stars.

oh and, yes, thanks for meeting tdy. i had a great time.. really. i had fun. laughed a lot…    n i really appreciate u taking the time out for me. albeit the fact tt we only shopped for perfume for ur mei, n had dinner, n pei me see doc n buy wrapping paper (despite ur being soo tired). haiz. *a sudden down*

in any case, just heard frm kuowei tt a poly friend of his passed away .. haiz. billy joel: ”only the good die young”. if you ask “why?” there are so many explanations. bt it will be too sensitive a topic for me to talk abt here.  :)  in any case, hope u’re not too upset abt it.. everything happens for a reason. if u find that reason, mebbe u will see things more clearly..

and my twin sista has just told me tt shes gotten back with her dear!!! oh my. im soooo happy for her!!!!! so happy for u babe!!!!!! all my best blessings and wishes to u n ur hunk!!!!!! 

yixin is hungry. and tired. n having a headache. n is sooo glad tt i can wake up late tomorrow 

*edits* yixin just realised hw funny the blog looks with little yellow faces dotted all over it here and there loool!!!     */edits*

today is catching up on sleep day! lol. found out that if i wanna forget about some unhappy stuffs, i shld sleep. cos for at least a few hours, my heart wont try to wrench itself into a gazillion different “untangable” knots.

have been listening to ur “wo ke yi” repeatedly. mebbe im losing my hearing lol. idk. i really dont. there seems to be a lot of things idk nowadays. its raining. i love raining days. when the wind is howling, when the trees get bent left n right from the wind, when the leaves do more than just rustle in the breeze.. its peaceful, somehow. me loves looking at the rain. actually, me loves overcast days. when the sky’s so dark and it is so quiet out there. its different from at night. the whole atmosphere’s so calming on an overcast day.

of course, the poor birds have to suffer.. and the littlest creatures caught in the wild and open outdoors. lucky for my cat, tho, she always has this shelter to come back to after shes done frolicking. havent been able to take pics of her these days cos she’s always not around. bt i think her foot’s getting worse. it kinda swelled the past two days and we think it may be infected. havent been able to catch her tho. she always disappears like lightning recently. i wonder whats up. she cant be pregnant cos she’s sterilized.

*fell asleep thinking about u, woke up thinking about u. nvr had this kind of feelings before. disconcertion*

yixin has been stupid. bt wont make the same mistake again. haiz.

thanks qx for the help n thanks to stilnox i got 7hrs of relatively peaceful sleep.. its my new best friend LOOOL. actually, i dont really want it to be. dont wanna be reliant or anything like that.

tomorrow’s monday again. hopefully i’ll see you tomorrow. really. i do wanna see u tomorrow.