quintessentially banausic

as usual im in deep deep DEEP shit for zlh. and i mean deep shit. nt even thru my first draft yet n im not gonna be hm tml to finish tt up..AND i don even noe wat to write for tdy. shit. no motivation man.. SIAAAAAANNN..!!!!! hurhurhurhurhur. bl00ps. has successfully cured myself of fb addiction! UNTIL. the emails came lol. bt its ok lar. jz checking sum stuffs n ill definitely close it up alr. haha. im sian man. seriously. and theres sth seriously wrong with my stomach. daddy jz told me tt my ideal weight shld bt 50kg or so. (according to my weighing machine im 46 nw) but i think its inaccurate – the weighing machine, i mean. bt anyways, i don mind getting thinner

ive dropped 1kg today… must gambatte if i wanna reach my ideal weight which is 3-5kg away. -.-” idk wen this “obsession” with my weight came abt. could be wen an idiot said im fat wen i was 43kg (i think so) or could be wen i started getting fatter n all the flabs started coming out n my muscles started bulking (think jc) lol. and anyways, i think im pretty obsessed with weva i look fat or not. sighx. i wan my 23 again lar…………….. it’ll be so cool if i could wear my sec sch jeans again LOL. anyways, i have yet to start on ZLH. so im so friggin dead. -.-”

note: sucker punch

I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED MY FIRST DRAFT OF SAL!!!!

lol. jz wanted to scream that out loud and couldnt find anywhere so it had to land on blogger. WAHA!!!

hahahahaha. now i can finally listen to emi fujita. cldnt listen to it jz nw was afraid id fall asleep. =D Lovin’You…….. doodoodooo…… im nuts, seriously. NUTS. waha. now all ive got to do is add some more words to it =D im at 1700 words (or so). hehx. bt im sick n tired of it. so i might jz hand in the first draft! waha! so high lar! nw all ive got to do is get started on zlh…. :’(

a few facts (updated)

1) yixin is stressed
2) yixin hates sal
3) yixin hates having to do sal’s report
4) yixin hates having to do sal’s report when she is not in the mood
5) yixin is going crazy
6) yixin has a new formula to get your brain to get work done (its crazy n it doesnt make sense):

the name of the formula is Brain-ian’s motion (:)) :
Assuming that: x = work done, and work done = nett distance travelled,

since when seated in a stationary position the brain is unable to move (it doesnt have legs doh!), the subject (i.e. the stressed people who cannot think of anything to write for idiotic reports) should get up and walk around, find a firm, hard surface and bang forehead against targetted area.
the above action should stimulate the motion of the brain by forcing it to move with relatively large amount of force against the front and back of the skull. since x = work done, and work done = distance travelled, therefore, by inducing the motion of the brain, work done of the brain should be stimulated

note: certain amount of pain is to be anticipated. if red substance starts to drip or flow from the forehead, subject should take note that it is known as B-L-O-O-D. blood. so, if the above scenario happens, please take note that immediate medical consultation should be taken and action to stimulate the brain has to stop with immediate effect. failure to do so may result in a complete dysfunction of the brain as well as the entire body (i.e. YOU’D BE DEAD *:D*)

(well actually it doesnt work cos in the end ur brain gets back to where it is which means that x = work done = nett distance travelled = 0. but in the process u get a lot of work done!! and it includes smashing ur brain a little bit. )
ok. im totally nuts. bt who the hell cares. HAHA.

hahas. its confirmed i will be having a birthday bbq! hmmmz but i must take a little voting first to decide which day its on cos mums won be free on 31st (*sobs* im sad cos shes always nt free on 31st…. *cries*)! bt anyways, there are like, 3 choices lol:

1) 28th dec (friday night)
2) 29th dec (sat night)
3) 30th dec (sun night)

so… these are the three dates lo… im finally stepping out of the “teens” age so as many friends as possible would be nice!!! hmmmmm the biggest fear i have is that no one turns up!!! haha. (im looking forward to some mahjong or sth…….) i havent “swam” for AGES! haha. hmmmm weird mood tdy.

anw, i got stomachache. BAD bad bad stomachache. and i really need to do my work tonight. sighx. sian!

so, id meant to spend a day well spent by studying n writing my report. BUT i went out with kenneth, and then met weinii for dinner. so, again, BURNT. tho i did read thru cch’s 句子结构分析 – the notes that i took during his class – 3pg only!!!! oh n emily always has a panic attk wen i go out for fun. -.-” now im sad. sigh. BETTER START BIA-ING. bt im feeling quite bad nw. shall start on sal first i guesss………………………….. (i am SO unwilling to start on sal. i keep seeing her face n hearing her stupid voice n her s/sh mistakes -.-”)

today was apparently the “meet all the peeps” day lol. saw shihua on 184!! tts really rare. esp. since i moved away frm 253 5 years ago.. (me misses tt place SO much) met shama on 199!!! omg lol. tera too!!!! oh n xueyi! lol. tts a coincidence cos we didnt meet in the interchange! ok, to me, it was a coincidence lar! =D

me is thinking tt its very hard for me to really succeed in life tho ive got these ideals. cos ive made the biggest mistake of all: laziness. which leads to .. PROCRASTINATION. sigh. tho i noe all the theory, the practical is so hard! but i will strive. (tomorrow). -.-” anw, got to start on my zlh! n SAL! omg. am so dead for both. but i shall try to psycho myself. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. (x100000000000000000000000000)

tomorrow is lbc one hr lesson. danggit. anyhows, was talking to emms on the 179 today lol. SO MANY JOKES lah. lol. pai seh-ded abt my own blurness really lol. anyhows, am listening to emi fujita now and im so loving her voice haha. i cant find my bossa nova cd tho.. ok, i badly need new songs in my very very very old music folders lol. cos i nvr bother to go buy new albums lol. (i love The Rose and I’ll Have to say I love you in a song. ok i love all the songs in this album =D) now im looking forward to Olivia! haha. i distinctly remember that i have sth to blog about but i just cant really rmb what.

(this definitely has to go down though): my sis was telling me abt the conversation she was having with her piano teacher (and previously mine, too. n im still planning to pursue my LTCL ATCL n FTCL under him) on saturday during her lesson. im pissed bt its so funny still! lol. 哭笑不得!!!

teacher: u noe, ur sis has such a passion for music (that i agree, the following i cannot disagree bt im quite unpleased -.-”) even though she has such short fingers! sad right?? sigh……… and summore:

(but im lurving this nxt sentence =D)

teacher: your sister’s (i.e. ME) fingers so short but still play better than you leh!!!!!! wahahahahahahahaha. i am so evil. =D

this is what he used to say to me when i was preparing for my grade exams (all the way till grade 8 he was still saying the same thing -.-”):

teacher: eh, yixin ar.. i think you don’t have to practise sight-reading for ur exams right?
me: why?
teacher: cos everytime you come for lesson you practice ur sight-reading alr what!

what a sharp arrow. -.-” pain!!! sigh. but i still miss those days of music, music, music and more music. going for band, piano lessons.. playing the piano…. sigh.. (i do still play tho. just once in a very long while. almost always when im duper stressed or sick or tv LOL)
btw, saw ali at the bus stop tdy. but she was so far away! lol. newaez, i believe in the quality of mac fries ;P

dang. the rain is so heavy tonight!! perfect weather for some much needed ZZZZZs!!! BUT. there is SAL oral report tml. sian. tho its almost done alr. don feel like touching up anymore (ive onli done the conc and intro n i simply heck sal). hope its enough for me to crap for 5mins.

this is to make me start working:

1) SAL oral report — 2 days
2) ZLH oral report — 2 days
3) SAL (stupid) essay — 9 days
4) ZLH (cheemology) essay — 15 days
5) exams start — 26 days
– SAL — 26 days
– ZLH — 29 days
– LBC — 30 days
– CCH — 31 days
– ZAD — 37 days

its making me stressed out. so i think imma try doing sth about that stress. -.-” (sian)