today is a good day!! and i did two things for the first time!!! the first of which is .. i regret to say, strictly confidential and ive “sworn” to secrecy.. but the second thing is, i actually went to the pool with no previous agenda (urm, apart from slacking and trying to get a tan lol) yes i was trying to get a tan. BUT the sun is not cooperative today. he disappeared almost 90% of the time. so me and alicia were, in all honesty, very upset!!! so yes im happy. and also happy cos after doing these two things (in particular the first), i am more geared up towards my lose weight goal lol. but i must stop talking about this lose weight stuff cos its very irritating. esp. to listeners lol. yes, i realise that, thank you very much i get quite sick of saying it too. i think i have low self-esteeem but who cares? seriously. its not just for the appearance thing, but (for me, at least) for the health issue. so yes. im not overweight but i seriously need to control before my weight spirals out of control. -.-” weird.
anyways, as i told alicia, was looking through my sec sch results. and OMG, i cannot believe those were my grades and i wasn’t even concerned!!! idk weva to laugh or just shake my head and say: is that really me (?) omg! seriously! oh and i was looking at this project work thing that we had to do when we were in sec3. and we had to corkiest group name! lol. Bio Alliteration!!! lol. cos there were 4 lit students and 1 bio student in our group haha. but we were from the same class tho. 
corkiest! haha. THOSE days man. those unbelievably screwed up days.
ohohoh!! we saw this ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUSLY PERFECT painters’-smock kinda dress today. yes, its denim. but its perfect! i mean, its cute! really! hmmz. i wish i can wear it lol. more inspiration towards the goal!!
anyways, i got a shock when i opened my room door just now BECAUSE MY ROOM WAS SO CLEAN!!!! i have a habit of putting all the books i read before i sleep (i have to read at least ten pages a night if not i cant sleep) on the table beside my bed (which is also where my water bottle is located) and its like, idk.. 3 stacks of books piled super high. and today, i opened the door and POOF! all i could see was my floor!! i actually can see the floor beside my bed!!! lol. its cleaner now, my room that is. ive only got one single problem .. where am i going to find the stuff? cos im so used to having them just anywhere (but i still know where instinctively)
oh and dino’s coming back soon. i just hope that the plane takes off on time cos the weather in aus now is quite bad i think. they havent confirmed the time for the flight even. cos of the darned weather and they have already put off going to Blue Mountain since Tuesday. which is pretty bad, eh, mate? lol.
anyways, idk if anyone realised but im starting to make a conscious effort to cut out all my “like”, “totally” and “so”. but my anyways is still a habit. gotta keep working at it. its all in the head. its all in the head.
